January: named after the two headed Roman god Janus. The month of the year when we are urged to reflect on the past and make plans for the future. This year, I won’t be doing that. This year, I’m burying my head(s). I’m going to focus on the perfection of now.
I used to be a searcher. When things didn’t go my way, I changed course and sought happiness somewhere else. I’ve loved many times. I haven’t stayed in a job for more than 3 years. I have moved around the country, I’ve travelled across the world. I’ve run to the sea again and again…..Now I’m home and landlocked, and it’s ok.
Finally, I’m not searching anymore because I’m immersing myself in the perfection of now…….My heart soars when I think about the people I love. My soul is nourished when I notice beauty in nature, the cold clear days that bring blazing sunrises and pale golden sunsets. Even the greyest day provides an immaculate blank canvas for stripped branches to ink across the skies.
I used to think I needed to be somewhere else, to be someone else to be happy. That is no longer true. I can be happy now, where I am and who I am because I’ve found the joy in that.
So this January, maybe don’t regret the past or worry about the future. Revel in the perfection of now: it’s from here that you will fly!